Alcoholism and I

[TheBlueWolf]

Im a grateful recovering alcoholic. My sobriety date is 1st November 2013.

I started drinking at the age of 15. Up until that point I had always felt slightly out of sorts, like a fish in a bowl looking out at life. Alcohol, I assumed, made me part of life and I loved the effect it had right from the first sip. Over the years my drinking spiralled out of control and I lost jobs, family, friends, relationships and homes due to my reckless behaviour while drunk. I did have short periods sober but I would find some way of justifying my drinking and start over again. Of course I stubbornly refused to blame myself or my drinking and these losses, and all the trouble I got into because of it, made me drink more. Eventually I was to become a broken alcoholic living on the streets.

In 2012 I first entered the rooms of A.A. I got a sponsor and took the steps but I became lazy about my recovery and relapsed and went back out on the streets. On 1st November 2013 I was allowed to enter a cold weather shelter on the condition that I sober up immediately. I havent looked back since then.

Life hasn;t always been great but my worst days sober are still much better than my best days drunk. I am happy, grateful and humbled to be in recovery